One night

There was a night long before the ones which followed it, as it were to be the one to never forget. This on night began while the sun was still setting and the sky wandered about all the colors yet to be seen. On pavement, I looked up with closed eyes to feel the soft drops of rain. People scurried all over the place as they were ants looking to run along their work and lives. I stood alone in a crowd. My opened to see far across blaring horns of speeding cars. She was there dressed in black. Long hair, dark eyes with a smile. My mouth goes dry in wanting to speak. Closer and closer we come to another. Time slows down to a crawl everywhere at once as if it were just for us. Then it happens, we embrace like lost lovers over time. As we let go for a moment to talk, I wake up in my bed strangely missing the feeling of home in that embrace. I remember it sometimes before I sleep, only in parts, hoping it would be real someday.

New Update

It has been a while since I have posted here. Many things have happened to me personally which to some extent I will explore in the coming months on a daily basis. However, I decided to direct this blog to be my personal journal to track myself as I progress. I am attempting to do something horrifying for anyone after the age of 21...starting over. It's not a gimmick or lackluster schtick like a new years resolution, but a new life evolution. I am 27 years old and it feels like I have lived twice that time. Recent events have thankfully given me the time to take thing and change. This change whether people I know like it or not will happen and remain a permanent marker on how I conduct myself from this point out. I am holding myself accountable, just like anyone else, for the exception that I, me and me alone am the priority before anything else. I have spent too much of my life with the naive notion of being noble to an extreme. It is a common tale I know, but it finally dawned on me that I have to harbor feelings of selfishness and not feel guilty for it. Guilt, oh how I smite you every single day in so many ways. Guilt was my fatal weakness which I mistook for loyalty. I pick and choose my battles wisely. There are battles that are brought to my doorstep which I choose to ignore or it will resolve itself in time. I am in no hurry to do things based on another person's timetable. Everything has its proper time and place, so is everything which I am involved with. I think I got what I wanted off my chest, soon there will be more up here on this page. Maybe videos of myself making a fool of myself probably? Who knows?